Grieving in the Now and Not Yet

I am struck by how grief feels. It is remarkably tense. It feels like suspense. I imagine it must be a lot like how it would be to be held between two tall buildings with elastic cloth. Waiting for something to happen. But then nothing does. You are just left with an overwhelming feeling of…

Short Thoughts on Another Year

Every year, when my birthday comes around, I freak out a little bit. Which is rather odd, since I’m barely an adult—shouldn’t I be excited? Don’t get me wrong because I really am, but there’s something so strange about another year of your life coming and going. I find myself constantly questioning whether or not…

Imperfect Christmas

I have always been head-over-heels IN LOVE with Christmas. There is this incomparable wonder that encompasses this time of the year—but, it’s really hard when that isn’t captured. This season is really rough for a lot of people—depression is real, loss is real, anxiety, dissociation, horrible family situations, they are all super real and super…

Casting Out Worry About Control

For a long while now, I’ve been worried about a myriad of things: money, travel, am I doing anything worthwhile with my life? (As you can see, the questions have escalated the more I’ve thought about all the things about which to worry!) But then there are these moments when that still small voice whispers…