My absolute favorite quote from the Narnia series is all about how God grows in importance and conscious presence as we mature. We are constantly growing closer to God, and consequentially, He is becoming of ever greater substantiality to us.
“Aslan,” said Lucy, “you’re bigger.”
“That is because you are older, little one,” answered he.
“Not because you are?”
“I am not. But every year you grow, you will find me bigger.”
There is an unequivocal sweetness I find in relationship with the Lord—that is, there is nothing that can be so Good and utterly transformative as sitting with God, with the One Who saw our unformed substance, crafted us with His hands, and growing ever-closer to His Heart. We have longstanding relationships with other people, we grow to appreciate friendships and family more and more throughout our lives, but nothing can ever begin to compare with the way our relationship with the One Who has been dreaming of us since Eternity Past matters.
We have forever been in the Heart of God, even as we were not yet anything but a Thought. There is such an unbelievable Joy founded in the midst of the deep intimacy that is present only within the Heart of the Father.
One of my greatest loves is learning—which is well-spoken to by my education degree—and one of the most wonderful things about our relationship with God is a never-ending journey closer to the center of His Heart. For all eternity, we get to draw ever nearer, into further intimacy with Christ, and that is a beautiful thing—there’s never a boring step closer to God because each step further into the Service of Christ is filled with new awe and Joy.
We will grow apart from people, ideologies, careers, and expressions, but in everything that we may grow apart from, we are always drawing nearer to Awe Himself, and with this closeness of Goodness, into more maturity—into deeper Service to the Father. “There is but one good; that is God. Everything else is good when it looks to Him and bad when it turns from Him.” (C.S. Lewis)
When we pursue the Father, all the other Good Things come along, but when we pursue those additional blessings, we will not find them filled with Joy and increasing in Awe relative to the Father—we will only find them empty and unsatisfying, leaving us with an utterly gaping understanding at the purpose of our lives. The difference between a mature Believer and one who says “Jesus” but does not know Him is that the one who does not know Him cannot bring themselves to say that the Good Things will come best when they are not what is being pursued. The mature Believer recognizing the all-encompassing nature of the Goodness of God, and can recognize the words of Matthew 6 as a solid foundation: “So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.”
Where earnest seeking of the Kingdom is present, every need will be met—not in the prosperity gospel sense of “need and desire” but in the Kingdom of Heaven manner. There may be times when we grow hungry, tired, overwhelmed, and uncertain—but there will never be a time at which the Presence and Goodness of God is not sufficient to sustain us in every moment. “…I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” (Philippians 4:11-13) Paul wrote these words from prison—I can imagine he was quite tired, overwhelmed, hungry, and filled with uncertainty, but nonetheless, the Wonder and Goodness of God sustained him beyond any reasonable means. Not only as we become older does God become bigger and more substantial to us, but as the type of trials and tribulation we endure change and sometimes become more difficult, God becomes Greater to us in that as well. “Each time he said, ‘My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.’ So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.” (2 Corinthians 12:9)
And the one thing I will never get over, is that God is always speaking and moving and inviting us deeper into His Heart—both in the certain walks through the valleys and moments on the mountain top. There is no end to His Presence, His Goodness, and His Love for us—for He cannot deny Himself, and His very essence is Love and Goodness. Handcrafted and hand-carried, we are so deeply known, so deeply Loved, and this Love never backs down or abandons, it only draws nearer and always calls us closer, and there is always more to discover in the Heart of God.