In a Word

If you had only one word, who would you say you are?

Daughter? Wife? Husband? Father? Mother? Son? Friend?

Who are you?

One word—that’s it.

When you strip yourself down to the completely undecorated basics—who are you?

Take off every mask and façade—take off all the makeup, all the show, all the dressy clothes and put together outside, and who are you then?

Drawing away all the elements that we believe “make us”, whether it’s music, writing, singing—everything we have said to be “a part of us” is stripped away.

You just exist. You are just You.

Who are You then?

What do You hear yourself being called when the whispering song of the Creator is the only thing left to define you?

Sweet Child, there is more to You than the success of your career, activities, hobbies, and ideas.

You are more than enough without these things. You are more than enough in the midst of not knowing what You are good at or feeling like You are failing at what You thought you were.

You are more.

“Fearfully and wonderfully made” was a mark put on You in the womb—not when You graduated with that standing, got that job, or made that connection—fearfully and wonderfully made before You could define any kind of value.

It is unfortunately easy for us to sit under anything we perceive as a failure and attempt to glean our identity from it.

Instead of saying, “I need to try again.”

We say, “I’m incapable, and this failure defines My intrinsic value.”

And isn’t that exactly what the Enemy desires for Children of God? Stagnation and apathy as a result of fear and perceived failure?

We attach all these things to ourselves—aesthetic, career, talents—and we don’t take time to sit beneath the Words of the Father and let those inform our every step into Who We Are. Instead, we sit under the perceived successes and failures of our own attempts, believing that they will eventually measure up to something of enough value for us to finally feel satisfied.

And then they don’t.

And then they don’t.

“Now God, who has made us, knows what we are and that our happiness lies in Him. Yet we will not seek it in Him as long as He leaves us any other resort where it can even plausibly be looked for. While what we call ‘our own life’ remains agreeable we will not surrender it to Him. What then can God do in our interests but make ‘our own life’ less agreeable to us, and take away the plausible source of false happiness?” (C. S. Lewis, The Problem of Pain)

We have amounted our joy and contentment to that which we might be able to achieve on our own, and yet every further step, each moment closer to the goal which we have carved out for ourselves and continue to fulfill in our own power, is never quite enough.

Yes, something is always missing—escaping the satisfactory end of finally feeling Whole.

Wholeness and Holiness were ascribed to our names before the beginning of Time for His Namesake. The Redeemed of the Father have already been brought into Wholeness, but to truly embody such an identity and calling, we must set aside our own stubborn will to step into the Thing we have been desperately looking for in every place but Self-Sacrifice and Denial, which is where our fulfillment, strangely enough and against all natural inclination, is to be found.

“that, in reference to your former manner of life, you lay aside the old self, which is being corrupted in accordance with the lusts of deceit, and that you be renewed in the spirit of your mind, and put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth.” (Ephesians 4:22-24)

For it is in the laying down and surrendering of everything we thought to be Ourselves where we are finally showered with purpose and identity—not identity rooted in our ability, track record, or dreams, but simply in that we are born of God, and as His children, He graciously pours out Good Gifts over us.

You are simply Beloved, and You are treated like it.

Dearest Child, Beloved, take a breath.

You are Enough, beyond the successes and failures of your day-to-day.

Enough, Beloved, You are Enough.

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With Love,

Hannah

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